People often think being self-employed must be so cool as you have so much freedom and you make all the rules. Yes – I totally agree! But it’s also RIDICULOUSLY stressful.
I am 110% grateful that I no longer have to work a 9-5 job and figure out my life. There are many sacrifices you have to make with running a business (especially a start-up) – my business is literally a baby. Yes only a 1 year old.
Initially I felt like I didn’t know what on earth I was doing. Like mate I didn’t even know how to post a parcel and what type of shipping methods were available lol yes I was that lost. I’ve come from knowing NOTHING about running a business to managing my own business, showroom, website, team and so much more. And want to know a fun fact? I started my business with only £500.
Although I feel content with how things are going and I believe in enjoying the journey, I never feel 100% content. Even after a 12-hour shift I still feel like ‘Shit, I should work harder’ – I’m not sure if this is normal or a dangerous place to be in.
I’m in a weird place right now, I’m happy and grateful but also feel unsettled. Scrolling through my old Instagram posts I can see that I was a completely different person. I was very into being busy, enjoying life, dolling up, taking selfies, going gym and now it’s just work work work. Although I love what I do I feel like I’m losing myself slowly. I keep telling myself I’m not stressed and I’ve got my shit together but really I haven’t. Does anyone really?
I’ve had acne for over 11 months now and it DOES NOT GO AWAY. It has made me so uncomfortable and feel so low about the way I look. Now I’m not sure why I suddenly have acne but my guess is that it’s stress related. I’ve literally tried everything under the sun and it just would not go.
I’m all about working hard and giving it your all but the truth is your health is your wealth. Looking after yourself is so important. Your mental health is so important. Being happy is so important. As much as I’d like to be a workaholic I need to make time to look after myself. Like I don’t remember the last time I pampered myself or went shopping. Self care and self love is crucial. Even spending time to cook yourself a good healthy meal or spending time in gym is all part of self-care. I’ve become so caught up in work to the point I’ve started neglecting my own needs. I feel the reason for this is because when you’re self-employed AND you love what you do, you end up working NON-STOP. Like I’m seriously bursting with new ideas 24/7 and I don’t know how to take a break anymore. It’s actually scary.
If you’re reading this and can relate I totally get you and you’re not alone. I’ve made it my goal this month to take care of myself better and stop being so hard on myself about work because like I said, my business is a 1 year old baby. There’s no rush to achieve it all.